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Thursday, November 20, 2008
For the last few days I've been thinking a lot about consumerism and my expectations about how I figured my life would go and stuff. I don't really want to go into the details, other than stating that it is really, really, really difficult for me to relinquish what I have envisioned, including the emotions that are wrapped up in all of it. At the same time, in relinquishing these things, I have felt a sort of peace...but it is a sadness mixed with peace. I'm at a point now where I don't really know what to do with that sadness. And there is definitely a part of me that wishes I could rewind my life a week in order to see if maybe things could have been done differently. Otherwise, not much to report. Today I have a late shift at the hospital (11:30-8p) and then right after that I'll play tennis. I really dislike this late shift because it makes me feel like I've squandered my morning and can't do that much with it. Likewise, getting off at 8p makes me feel like there's not much time left before going to bed. I am taking on the shift to help the spiritual care team because tonight is their biannual memorial service for those who have died at the hospital within the last 6 months. So, in a very real sense, I am taking one for the team. I am hoping that I won't be too tired leaving work--I've cancelled my tennis match with Colander for the last few weeks. Before those weeks, he cancelled with me, so I haven't really played tennis in a good two months...maybe more. Tonight I will pay for that, I am sure, both in my ability, as well as my endurance. I bought a new pair of brown corduroy pants and I have been wearing them almost non-stop. I'd link to them, but Eddie Bauer's site doesn't allow that anymore. I still cannot find my checkbook, which I lost about two weeks ago. This morning I checked the couch cushions on one couch. I still have to check the other couch. I really cannot figure out where it has gone. I might just hae to break out a new one from my stash. If you happen to know where my checkbook is, feel free to leave a comment letting me know where I can find it... - Jenny, 11/20/2008 10:17:00 AM |
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